Sensing

I poured the wine in the dark
trusting i woud sense
when to stop
taking the glass in hand
i walked slowly into light
and saw how close
i came to overflowing.

Let the Lover Be - Rumi

Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy,
absentminded. Someone sober
will worry about things going badly.
Let the lover be.

- Rumi

desert rain

desert rain come and pound my senses
flow through my beaten brain
and wash all thoughts away

it is the soul's fire smothered
by duty

is there no mercy
for self?

near-wreck

in an instant
it happens
instinct takes over
and I jerk the wheel
to the left
anything to get away
from the large blue flash
converging upon me
from the next lane

this is rt. 66
this is my daily commute
and all the other drivers
that share this highway

blue flash minivan
no, i didn't honk
i was too amazed
we made it

without colliding
in the midst of cars
and concrete
and people
like us.

i think i'm growing

You just got to love Raffi
"I think I'm growing"
Raising children,
singing Raffi songs
I'll never forget

Now, at 40,
I think I'm growing
This week, I've been
sretched beyond what
I thought was possible

years ago, I would have
defended, I would have cried
I would have retreated.
Not now

In the last two days
I've been verbally attacked
by others
and handled it with grace

I've worked 3 full-time jobs
in 24 hours a week
I've been a mentor,
a friend, a mother,
a lover, a coach, a daughter,
and more

here i sit
quietly content
next to my man

together, we are stronger
than alone
together, we are one
together, we are home.