lovers no more

Strange how I look at us then

lovers

never thought this would happen

lovers

such a romantic dream

stifled by life

lovers

no more.

silence

Silence..

takes a hallow shape

halting all communication

feeding emotions

uncovered

unspoken

Eating away at truth

devouring soul

Why do some need it

and others abhor it?

I'm the latter

so I sit

in silence

so that I, once again

heed to others

I need to go out and scream

Even if its just the trees that hear me

Just to release truth.

email to my husband regarding his return

i'm going to grab hold of your lips
and kiss your soft flesh
until my breath gives out.

Fireflies

Quiet steals the night

above i watch the

stillness in the trees

lit up by sparkling light

one by one they glow

like notes of a song

dancing in the sky

they put on their show

as if on cue

for i had just said

"God, it's me"

and then there's you.

i remember

I'm not going to stop living

you remind me with memories

dancing on dreams

and songs that echo in the night

I'm not going to stop loving

soul upon soul

on this worn path

to some godly place in the sun

footprints washed away in the sand

but we were there

i remember

grains still sift through my hands

touching me 

on their way to earth

thankful thoughts

My daughter had to write her 'thankful thoughts' for school

She wrote about her Gaga

We had dinner with Gaga and Papa Jim tonight

My daughter couldn't stop hugging her Gaga

As I sit outside and see over 30 trees 

in my backyard

some thin some thick

all bare and dark

against a magenta night sky

I am reminded of life's cycle

Now, I am in the cycle of parent

Homework, reminders, laundry,

teaching, setting rules, giving feedback

and finding moments to share and love

There is no better moment than now.

I am thankful for these moments

Grateful for healthy, happy children

Learning from every interaction

Joyful for family.

The mysteries of ADD

My son has ADD. 

The last few years have been a struggle,

not unlike those of others

We are in one of the richest counties

in America - Fairfax County.

Our school system is excellent,

yet often boys with ADD find it difficult

to fit the mold.

It's most perplexing.

Here's a boy with a genuine love for life

who can focus for hours on bugs, nature or legos

A boy who will spend hours to prefect the art of 

rollerblading

Yet, put in a structured environment,

literally fumbles.

I noticed something today

He is either totally in the moment

completely engaged in his activity

like looking for salamanders in the stream

or, he is out to lunch, not aware at all 

of his surroundings or his actions.

I see how this frustrates adults.

They think he doesn't care, that he is careless.

He's a goof-off or a smart-aleck.

I see this too, and I get frustrated.

Yet, there is something else.

Almost like a disconnect in the brain

I guess that is part of ADD.

I hate that he has to have medication

just to function in a structured society

If we were still living off the land

he would fit in perfectly.

But we have evolved.

Then I see Michael Phelps win the gold

I see him excel at his passion

despite his ADD

and I know in my heart

that my son will too find his passion

and be OK.

I love this boy.  He is a free-spirit

like his mom

but he also seems to have a 

disconnect with boundaries

like his dad

He will find his way

his truth

his heart.